i do not care

i do not care for the formalities of x-mas,  or any holiday for that matter. ive been conditioned to treat it with a light respect,  because of indifference not of apathy.

i do not care for the politcal field and the fiscal cliff they say is slated to destroy what little i know or care anout economics,  i am a pawn after all in this pseudo democratic great nation.

i do not care for the connections of with my immediate family for we are all using each other, i will probably never be free of their "loving" grasp until they die.

i what i do care about is finally coming into my own being, and emphasizing my ability of being an enabler, purveyor, amongst other things,  and NOT a doormat.

i do care enough to start voicing my oft meaningless opinions, because everyone is ENTITLED to having one,  but not pushing it on others.

i do care to start strengthening my very weak relationships with those i am distant from in my home of Montebello. they matter more than they knoe.

i do not care for the utter companionship of a women specifically, but a lady friend with a large amount of common interests and solid chemistry would not be something for me to overlook.

i do care to learn how to not overindulge in vices of sleep, inebreation, fapping and being a spendthrift. boredom does tend to get the better of me, and i am the devil's plaything on a rather loose shoestring.

i do care to start recapping my months again. documenting my life is very important to me and something ive always wanted to do. no matter how mundane it will mostly be, but the friends i have now wont make it so. hashtag: LEAN