how to talk to girls: talking to unstable internet crush.

 

-chat for a long time on the internet, think she's all about me and stuff. dont say a lot. but chu kinda thirstay anyway. 

-she'll post about being depressed, and tell her to chin up, keep ur head up. and ting like that, im being v genuine. 

-she tells you she sees me around mission once in a while, and then she sHe want to get ice creMe and "im like anytime Lovely Lady, i live at twerk"

-then she gives you her number because social media messaging is un reliable. 

-we go see monsters Uni, im awkward, so i say lets get coffee and then we smoke. 

-and we sit awkwardly throughout the whole thing, she expects me to put my arm around her. 

-i honestly hate talking to someone and doing the like during a movie bc i feel its rude, usually with someone i really dont know.

-but i fall asleep, wake up at a reasonable time, and feel so ashamed and embarrassed bc of falling asleep. 

-i still want to hangout with her. 

i dont know if the second dAte will happen. 

every once in a while i get really bunmed, 

this over sleeping is not the biz, 

a great change has happened again and again i am at crossroads of sorts. 

everytime i see people take great strides in the direction they want to go. but for what? 

there is a system to life, but only the creatives and the ceos and the trailblazers truly live. i always think, im not going to end up like my family, the struggle/bougie at best sort of life. No, i live the bachelor/ who really must not spend anymore on possesions because 

a large wardrobe indicates a small heart. 

to be selfish is what i really want. cause its hard to be when your culture is just one big shitty guilt trip. from the moment i was born to realizing the first time is a mistake and ting like that. i never want to "consciously" make dat mistake. it should happen naturally if it will ever happen to me. #FuckKids #FuckFam #FuckGuiltyness