i've been driving 100 miles@ 80mph

and it was boring and strenuous. 

i was hella stiff and nervous every time i drove next to a big rig/16 wheeler. 

yay for me!

next stop:ALD's recording studio!!!

After High School "Special!"

this weekend has opened my eyes. People such as i use this very low brow saying as an expression of dislike, "That's retarted!" Maybe i should change my choice of words, since my mother is contemplating a career option of opening a special needs hostel for people with mental disabilites when we make the move to the nor cal area. FORREAL. since it is a way for me to get a job whlie not having to exert much effort. it seems like the easy way out, but what is to be come of my personal endeavors? my college education? i think once i make this move my personal life is over. so i should make as much effort to have a regualr life right now, getting a job, going to college, trying to live on my own, and work on all my personal relationships.

OH yeah, the EP for my short lived hip-hop career.

1.Im Starting Life, I Hope I LOVE IT.

i can solve a rubiks cube in less than 5 minutes,

but i cant solve my life's biggest problem: unmotivatedness.
(maybe you were right, i should just chill out with you and connie next time.)

&forreal am i really gonna go to college?


i think the reason i didnt do it this summer i was just scared of losing my childhood. the immatureness, being irresponsible & all that jazz. i really dont want to lose that, and my mom is being a bigger bitch about being independent and blah blah blah BLAH! i really dont care about anything else right now. but am i really that unmotivated to do thing for myself now? i really dont even want to go out of my house to even walk in to some business just to even attempt to get an application and turn it in? im really scared of failure. only because the failure i known usually results in scolding from a certain stressed out parental. but whatevs. i have really do have passive aggressive disorder and loads others.


and i think my prophecy and fear is starting to come true. im losing my friends along with my mind. i swear because that's always in the back of my mind. so by the goddamn transitive property, friends im losing; friends equals my mind; losing my mind. there ya have it.

im such a failure at life. and aldrich, you shouldnt read such depressing things like this stupid blog. it'll ruin your train of thought and your mission to be like ghandi or something making everyone happy. im like the fckn boulder you cant budge, naww that's a bad analogy, plus you've always managed to turn my frown upside down. thanks for being there buddy.

danggg

havent been doing much this week, i actuallly got out to go skate, and today im just hittin up the tween fashion mecca.
maybe this month i'll see ya later.

last wednesday was the 10th birrrfday
of my younga sista!
oh well im broke in the mind and in the wallet.

what the fuck is a man to do?
when he is broke?
sell his ass on the streets,
be a sticky fingerd fool.
or what ever floats your boat.

aldrich i missed you and everything else in my life soo much,
just like the missed last episode of ABCD!!!!

only lysdexic people sanderstund that joke.

when one goes,

they all go, its starting first with joe, only of them i knew, not very well but well enough to kick it after school, our love for music was the only thing we had in common, nothing else really connected us. one other thing was i super jealous of you, shiiit i dont even know how you kick it off with women, especially that one artsy fartsy one. it compelled to be a different person, practically since i was searching for a brand new crew to kick it with since last year's had already taken flight. that's what i get for making friend with older people, but in my case around the same age.

yeah but, there probably isnt that many that mean much to me who are leaving, it really is me tho.
sooo if ya gone, announce that shit, so i know who's leaving, cause i just like to know.