Zeal for Life

ain't nobody got a zeal for life like these go-getters i know,
i'm fucking fine being complacent with this place im in,
low budget, life off of snacks stuck on these muni and bart tracks,
not too far from where i am headed, the bus i ride on never becomes dead ended,
stupid shit so soft, like a prosthetic titty,
i am done with being smart, being human, being witty,
just wanna curl up in a ball & die,
not because, as i would say, no-one loves me,

its because people do, and i hate that shit,

they love a person who doesnt do anything,
and when i mean anything i mean make him self into something,
and when i mean something i mean be an average person with a degree,
pays taxes, and is stable on his own two feet.

buys everything with own dough,
from clothes & shoes
to movies and shit he eats,

everyone does that,

i am living like this to be anti-trendy?
but being anti-trendy is catch 22,

i read that off of the slap magazine forums,

filled a bunch for skateboarding 30 somethings,
stuck at their computer screens, post-mortem,

an exquisite way of saying that's how they deal with boredom,

but i'm boring, i was born like that, so my speech repetitive,
and reflexes sloth-like

the amount of self hate i have monolithic,

it's like mount Olympus of loathing,

the only time i like myself
is when i'm with women in good clothing,

but shit like only happens with relatives,

so with strange girl,
it's mostly just hoping,

miss an old lady,
a distant relative,
lola joving,

no i'm not joking,

it's like pronouncing HO-ving,

HOV of her family,

frail fragile anatomy,

i'm so redundant,

professors always mad at me,

the way i wreck ledges,
i should charged for multiple batteries,

enough energy to light up a whole house,

A Spectre

A long time, a faded memory,

Of course fixated on a physical frame,
Of a fine wide eyed, wild dame,
But knew her?
Not I, cause out of my bounds would I have never tried,

The closest I got was a childish minuet I thought was epic by homer's standards,
But still, I knew her not

Always by the glow, of a flat screen I thought had depth,

Near borderline insane researching her to death,

What was it that simply got me into, her look, her personal brand, that she wore so valiantly.

Like lioness ready to pounce, but playful at that.

Succubus lips, would have wanted to kiss, knew not what they've done but heard the venomous spit,

Fair skinned, but never a fair maiden,
Dark hair, never dark moods she exudes,

But a black rose she may be,
Able to take a man's challenge,
In one fell swoop you'll be down on one knee.

She's wise travel and relations with many, i dont think she was a way around girl. More than friends with plenty.

Of course one at a time!

But never in more than 9 seasons.
Like an on and off sitcom, with nothing more to give.

And my latest astonishment,
That since I hardly knew thee,
Your ancestry of nips and flips
To me, that's truly wholly, errotic, to mine own imagination

can someone give me a catchy name for a music blog?

Like "cows go moo, chickens go cluck"?

I want to start one in 2011
And if ya'll ever heard of hister runoff, I'll be asking stupid questions like,

What is a good example of a blog name?
Does having an obscure saying make it more indie/underground?
Are common sayings like don't cry ovr spilled milk still relevanxt?
Are blogs themselves still relevant with all these live feed sites running rampant?
Will we one day be connected to the internet via epidermal implants?


P.S. imso The Crystal Castles song "Not In Love" with Robert Smith vocals is soooo goood.

Always with the questions, first do I really friends? And what actions/ events constitute you as afriend?

Do I even care for my friends? I've never once texted someone once, out of actual longing for their companionship, for those I have I can count them out one on hand.

It's not a question of does anyone care for me, but am I willing to be vulnerable enough to put my name out on a line to see who will tug.

Yes, I relate win those godawful "forever alone" memes, because they are haunting visions of what my life COULD e if I was like Chandler Bing. Class clowns who are in the weird clubs, I was only an entertainer during my high school years, they go nowhere if hey do not pursue that feeling of being laughed WITH. And I know all "artists" have some issues, that's why they pour it out for all to see.
I have no to entertain, Two: what good is telling a joke that no one understands? Those reblog humor whores on tumblr are all lonely people with no substance, they people who post about drugs, are really poor people who wish they could be that carefree, given a few exceptions, and lastly those lustful pictures of errotica & DO NOT GIVE A FUCKs are sad lonely saps with no game. Shit and all the fuck yeahs flaming allegiance to a certain thing, get over yourself. Not even 5 five years from now will you be liking those very same things. only pets, Trekkies, and star wars nerds are that loyal.

Good god, I need to get laid, some good weed, and to get to get tucked in & fucked up. And a cigarette doesn't sound too bad right now.

P.s. Aldrich I miss you, I miss your voice, your scent, your dog, and your uncanny ability to pull punny jokes of of your ass.
Theresa I miss your sassyness, your "whoyoucallinbitch?!" attitude, and of course your adorable little feet.
Ryan, where's my fat lazy nigga ass lookin counterpart? Your suck at halo
reach, I just know it.
Jaime hood nigga entrepeneur! Where a real Mexican when you need one? Btw my sink's on the fritz bro, can your dad fix it?
Reuben, can't hate a nigga for being everywhere and nowhere atthe same time. Where else would I be on the cool guy spectrometer, with out you as my epitome for a stark comparison of steez
errick, WTF nigga you need to stop updating the channel 9 blog as soon as you post something of yours. I hate seeing double, unless they is titties!!! And when is Psylent bassment Finna be uploaded? Idghtfiagsts,(I don't get how the fuck I ain't gonna see this shit) especially since you want the troll and I to be at part deux. Btw I Miss you carving hills and shit. It's always cool when someone gets hurt.
Danny beezy, need I say anything more? You best be futurebabe watching while, I'm out chillin at playgrounds ;)
Sophia, like whattup? You seriously gonna be the only person i know finished with school before the world ends?
Kiko, damn, coachella still gonna happen?
RE: Brandon
life finna be trill once the cake finish baking.

Rhys stop skating, you are too good now.

AHHHHHH

back after a two month hiatus, my bro and i left our old home, now everyone hate us, flossin since we left the greatest, city now like rivalry, u must see, like ucla and usc, soon to be never internally rhyming, thinking all ways, rhymes never be exquisite, like my hops, jump shots and pivots, always quick to hate things like white bigot, but spit so much, call me a water spigot, figure out whats on the test, cant quiz it, feeling like lost my way, but its only cause i got sprayed in Modern Warfare, no fair, like homeless with less change and lots of hair. place me in the unemployment line, that's a sense of despair, i always spell shit incorrectly, that's why louies never respect me,

so i deleted my tumblr

that feels good.

it felt like a ball and chain was gonna drag me down.

but this simpleness reminds me of the simpleton that i am.

good shit.































i lied, i made a new one.

Pause Now

tryna catch a breath,

less wealth, not necessarily a waste of life, YET
quest, no tribe,
no gang,
no language,
protocol improper,
you sir are the prince and i the pauper,

tips i need,
not rules of life to suceed,
succinctly i need the feed,
osiris, ra, sun god,
festival, outside lands messed up ya'll
further notation,
my playlist needs lots of rotation,

question,

how does one still stay true,
with a room full of false persons?
to wear a mask, become assimilated,
wear it too long, individuality disintegrated,
godless fools, nothing the fear,
belief in everything,
hope nothing brings ,
without actions, passion isnt worth listening,
the soul for the game, mind changes quick like switching lanes,
nathan lane, straight up homo,
what about bono?
supposedly, he be a lifesaver, be he aint sweet,
more like now&later,
so do me a favor,
open the gate,
the floods come in, enrichment,
like silt from the delta, in the nile,
leaving LA, got me in denile,
SF where i left,
MTB where i write,
gone from a home,
so comfortable,
never gain much more than blue balls,
fam got weak, friends became fam,
stay true through the week,
7 days, samara will get you,
she'll fuck you up like kama sutra,
black and blue, battered and bruised,
put on 85 durometer wheels,
cruisin with 60s, fishtail wood,
this my escape from life, the worse and the better,
dont go well with water,
you my ariel and i your flounder,

dear miss, i'll be the thumper, guy friend,
just came, pretend to be prince, my penis never clean,

Who and when was your first kiss?

this girl in kindergarden named bianca,

we fucked underneath the slide/jungle gym.

Don't Ask

If you could change one thing that happened last year what would it be?

the fact, that i tried to keep in contact with people of my graduating year,

they didn't deserve my shit, so i'm glad im leaving LA now. FUCK EM.

Don't Ask

how do you feel about this new lay out?

its FKCN LOVELY, its not all suspect and some wanna be myspace shit, now its some wanna be facebook shit.

except not as equally lame.

Don't Ask

what are your pet peeves

pets, jeeves, uninteresting people or at least people not willing to continue carrying a conversation, and uhm uhhhh joy-kills, i would say HxC kids, but some of them know how to have fun.

and uhmmmm 5+ HOURS ON TUMBLR.

Don't Ask

what do you look for in a woman?

nothing in particular, but looks wise, heyyy wtf.

i think i answered this question already.

but okay...this is not a list of requirements,
it'd just be nice if the girl had these things,

bangs, a bottom, if she didnt mind me objectifying her casually,
uhmmm like some fierce looking eyes,

ohhhh and curly hair. that shit is hot.

but other than that, she better not be a hood rat, but needs to know not everyday is not a catwalk with me.

she don't have to doll up for the oscars, like im gonna give her an award.

this is really redundant, i dont want a girl who looks like shit all the time though.

she can be dirty around me, but like not dirty in front the guys.. cause i dont want them thinking she's one of the guys.. unless she wants to be.


FUCK ANON QUESTIONS.

fucking twats.

Don't Ask

. The yay area, coming to holmes near you. And i swear erin is a fckn cutie. :B

kol(jericho), and phillip, and last but not my least my bay niggas holdin it down. Daryl, Tim, Remy S. And Bryan Shawney. Fuhhhh, my 415, 650, 510 homies

Erin and Karvell, coolest fckn hosts ever. Jennfer and victor, and yo cousin vincent. Paolo, jon, steve, clinton and ya girl pam. No ishmael. HAHHAHA, ki

july first

projected date, i dont even want to think about it. Yeah i'm all drama. But seriously wtf, why? why bring me if i'm such a burden. I dont think deserving of anyone's goodwill anymore. Seriously i would want to be gone from this side of the earth. To just be alone. Forever.

re really was one thing i wanted, it would be a dad.

doesnt die. Lastly nobody ever asks why? Complacent with what i got, cause its agood thing, dare i say it, the good life. Its the life i have, but if the

be anybody, its the same as wanting to be like everybody. So i am better off with nobody, because nobody doesnt lie. And nobody does not try, and nobody

Common always said you could BE anything, be anyone, be anywhere. As long as you know what you want, and that's what you want to BE. But i don't want to

do i have

relationships or friends?


is there anything beneath the surface between us?

i really need to know,

because so far in my life people fall out because they were friends.

we never had anything meaningful...

maybe i make it so, but i need to know....

cause right now i only have one.

How do you feel about people who post unorginal content on their Tumblr with out giving credit to those who created the content or may have had it on their page first? Diiiick.

idk, im indifferent to things like that but if it were to happen to me, then i'd find that person and rape their cattle.

Don't Ask

What's your biggest phobia?

well, just losing my friends, no that's not right. being alone/not having a "social" life.

Don't Ask

do you not have questions to answer? or are you just not answering the ones you got? i need something to read when Im not watching porn!

no diiick, im no popular taylor diiickface from tumblrisforlulz pretentious asshole on the intranets.

but you best believe, i just pick the answer random question when i got nothing to do.

Don't Ask

Roxy Jezel

I think i'm going to watch greenberg on sunday after 6 cause its Student sundays!

Is it possible to get a hangover from smoking weed?

Dude 2 point something earthquake near carson

Final day of 9 day work week, FINALLY A LITTLE BREAK

Day 5 of 8 i'm doing okay so far. Just need to work on my timely-ness. It fuckin sucks

so i said, "we need a man in the house to show us how to respect you."

by the way my mother responded do this, was feministic and hurt.

whateva whateva, i do what i want.

This shit is soo wrong on so may levels. Is mr. Schurr high about coming out semi publicly?

I dont wanna ill, i jus wanna chill and keep my hand around a hundred dollar bill

DST you fucked me over. AGAIN

yo the nuart is poppin off! donglover is always lookin trill. Same goes for his bromosapiens

Superfast Jellyfish is my new favorite track off of plastic beach. damon Albarn you're done it again and re-invented your franchise, bravissimo!

I cant keep sleeping late all the time. Its ruining my work ethic and i'm way busier so its sapping my life away like a bulbasaur's leech seed. *HINT HINT*

Listening to an old but good album is like listening to an old friend's voice. Beck's Guero is the music i need to take off the day's edge

i learned

that cooking fries is simple, to refill honey mustard, ketchup and dip containers first thing.

check the ice, uhm throw out trash at least twice a day, don't fuck up.

and uhm yeah open your ears.

WORKSTOP

work work work,

starting next week,

11-5 mon, wed, thurs, fri.

i'm kinda liking it cause of this one co-worker.

cool weekend

got my hair did, shotgunned, b-lazered, talked with joebin, saw matt from 115 again,
andy "cool guy" chan recognized me. sent a stupid text to jami, played it off as someone stole my phone and drunk texted.

i love what i do, and i do what i like,

but do people like what i do & do what i love?


yeah good shit this weekend.

all thanks @aldxrich, kelsey, max, myra, @doh_boi, @rbn__, @atthenickoftime, danny, edward, joe, eddy & valentina, and matt and many others.


AHHHH MONROVIA, here i fuck up!

interview with a wingstop

couldn't have gone any worse or better.

what i do like is people i know but don't want to see won't see me here since its like 22 MILES AWAY FROM MONTEBELLO!!!!


that is if i get the job.

two words

no sleep
no food
no water,
corpse paint.
bottomless dresses

panties with an easy access vaginal hole.

my space,

two face,
outer space,

outside sports,
no more doors,
all windows
all widows,
no vows,
less cows,
more vegans,
short vacations
long hours,
easy interviews,
old shoes,
new shoes,
slip-ons,
ding dongs,
no service
no shoes.

so i found out

formspring has some sort of networking site now.

like twitter and tumblr and facebook and blogger.

it made it alot easier for me to make than having to do all the code.

i'm not too fond of learing to customize CSS/HTML, so now i have too much interconnectworking shit.

i think bobby was wrong when he said 2010 is all about privacy.

its all about being connected via broadband cable in the back of our necks.

January

Good Things happen this month and then some bad,

_Cliché's 15th anniversary book mixer for the release of Resumé at HUF LA. free brew by PBR and extras pretty sick.
was intriguing to see people you look up to in a certain aspect of life look very clean cut.
the PBR helped in getting signature, thanks to Jordan from Huf for the Cliche shirt hookup, and Cody for a possible discount in the future.

_a well respected man at my local church passed away.
(sucks i didnt wake up to go, especially after finding out his favorite soda is Dr. Pepper)

_Conan Left what was once a well respected franchise in late night on fairly good term and the majority of young blue America on his side. The rally in Cali was barely hindered by El Niño force rains and all over the country people congregated in the support of Conan's ginger wavy hair. Bravo Mr. O' Brien, you have one in and NBC has lost.

_Breathtaking. the word that describes the ancient city of Chichen Itza with its many wonders and lost greatness. it retains some awesomeness as inscriptions on the walls leave clues as to what Mayans did in certain parts of the city. for example this might be coincidence and made up by a explorer from long ago, but it sure had me sold.

_Riviera Maya, resorts and all along the east coast up to Cancun, a good place to go to if you're in your early thirties and want to cement the bond between you and yo partner, or you're an octogenarian from Canada or Europe and you want a Mexican Winter fling.

_Rhys' became an eagle scout, congrats man.

_Got new spectacles that don't make a debacle of my face

_Erick turned 19 and Theresa went back to SF :{

_Tumblr meet up for me was a disaster, but workable. got my sister to ride the fun-ner rides like BigThunder and Space Mountain. i was so excited to see my friends i havent seen in ages and maybe make a couple new ones. but maybe there might be a next time???

_ thats about it, oh and No College.
i'm going to have a very long spring.

_so that means breaking wood, and not saying shit like "If First You Don't Succeed Never Try Again," and "Better Never Than Late" cause honestly whats more disappointing? waiting even longer for an album to drop or never having to look forward to an album drop because its been scrapped?

_i need some new shit to keep me productive, the first week i should be getting Apps
and shit and filling them out like there's no tomorrow.


_MOVING UNITS WAS TIGHT LIKE A VIRGIN.
thank you very much danny and its so good to see you again valentina.
can't wait to go to one of her gigs.

plugged in

got a twitter? follow me fool,

got a face book, friend me too!

got a tumblr, tumble that shit too,

got a blogger, blog that shit fool,

inter-networking,

combine connections,

to make useful tools like sporks,

hog the lime light in in my live news feed,

whoring yourself out live

all the fame monsters, do not feed.

relativeS want a friend request,

denied, bitch.

got new glasses!

broke my last pair while role playing quidditch

DERP DERP, derpa derp

MEMEs are WORD

momma saw your kick back pics smoking some hash,

Triple "F" Triple "U"dash,

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

right click save as,

i saw pic of KEY-sha's

ass

with no bottoms,

i've fallen,

over,

nose bleeds,

tissue paper cover,

lotion & or cocoa butter.

(incomplete half thought out idea)