become less depressed

like expanded rar file,
be less confusing, more smart,
collegiate argyle,
for miles and miles of pages read,
like a million lives in fiction spent,
dark as the night on a moonless night,
aimless as a dandelion seed's flight,
i'm gone so gone,

mindless is not free,
trapped and broken,
as a harnessed horse is,
im lame, retarded

no idiot savant here,

pretending with pretense,
brain farts filled with fear.

the queers the queers,
some oozing with confidence,
what does it take to get to that level?

i envy those with it so much,
condemn them to hell,

if there is one,

i should live there,
tis would be swell.

a slave to no art,

no personal feeling,

no fucks have given on grammer and speeling,

harhar.

fuck you world,

no suicide note,

no balls for that,
at least thats what i hope.